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Happy holidays all!

First I wish you a great holiday season and massive success for 2009!

This year has been a year of massive growth for me. I moved to LA, I found myself the best producing partner possible, shot a teaser, wrote a book, polished several scripts, travelled and fell in love, to name but a few. Throughout these landmark events in my life, I have been challenged emotionally, spiritually, psychologically and physically and it is by having overcome all of these challenges that I feel I am a much better person. And because of you and so many wonderful and inspiring people that I’ve met and become friends with, I feel truly blessed and so very, very lucky.

Each year I choose a theme for the year. This is a tradition I started a couple of years ago with the help of my coach at the time, Morgana Rae. My theme for 2009 is Renowned Success. I encourage you to do the same and I hope you will let me know what yours is as well.

Once again, I wish you happiness through the holiday season and right into 2009!

Peace and Love ~ Elle.

So, I wrote my book. It's called Live Your Dream, Now! I've created a website for it. Check it out. I'm currently promoting it.

It's been a really crazy time for me. I've been challenged in so many wonderful ways and I'm so happy with the person I've become. For example, back in January the week before I was flying down to LA I was so nervous. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep. It was a huge time in my life and I was so scared. This past week I've been in a much more stressful experience. I moved and there didn't seem to be a way for me to stay in LA any longer. BUT I approached it a completely different way.

Back in January I didn't have the mindset that I have now. Back then I didn't know what was going to happen and that's what sent me into a frenzy. This time around, because I know how things work, I just had total faith that things would work out. I know what I want, I visualize and I exercise complete faith and gratitude.

It worked. Miracle after miracle and more to come. I've been presented with a way to stay in LA, I've been given some great advice on how to promote my book and I've been calm about 90% of the time. I say 90% because my body is still catching up to my mind.

This new way of being is highlighted in my book so check it out.

That's it for now. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

I just watched an amazing series of videos on the law of attraction and I felt compelled to post it here. It's a 5 part series no longer than half an hour. When you have time, check it out. Law of Attraction Videos I learned that no matter what, I am always manifesting all that I experience in my life.

Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

So, I wrote my book. It's called Live Your Dream, Now! I've created a website for it. Check it out. I'm currently promoting it.

It's been a really crazy time for me. I've been challenged in so many wonderful ways and I'm so happy with the person I've become. For example, back in January the week before I was flying down to LA I was so nervous. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep. It was a huge time in my life and I was so scared. This past week I've been in a much more stressful experience. I moved and there didn't seem to be a way for me to stay in LA any longer. BUT I approached it a completely different way.

Back in January I didn't have the mindset that I have now. Back then I didn't know what was going to happen and that's what sent me into a frenzy. This time around, because I know how things work, I just had total faith that things would work out. I know what I want, I visualize and I exercise complete faith and gratitude.

It worked. Miracle after miracle and more to come. I've been presented with a way to stay in LA, I've been given some great advice on how to promote my book and I've been calm about 90% of the time. I say 90% because my body is still catching up to my mind.

This new way of being is highlighted in my book so check it out.

That's it for now. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

I've been keeping pretty good focus with the money manifesting thing. It's starting to pay off. I had this amazing dream that I was a millionaire. The reason that I'm so jazzed about this is that it means that the thoughts are filtering down to my subconscious where they will be most effective.

That morning I woke up with tons of ideas to make money. One of them of course is the script that I'm working on, Wolf in Sheep's Clothing. It's really coming along and I hope to have it done in the next few days.

Another idea was to write a book. There's a book by Wallace D. Wattles called The Science of Getting Rich. It's such a great book and it's really comprehensive. It's only 60 or so pages. This is the book that inspired Rhonda Byrnes to make the Secret. This book was written in the early 1900's but it is so relevant to today. In fact it blows my mind how relevant it is. Anyway, it is in the public domain now, which means anyone can use it and publish it. I wanted to lend it to my friend Scott to read but I thought he would be turned off by the title so I got the idea to re-package the book, put in my two cents and give it a new, alluring title. So I've been working on that as well. I'm really excited by the possibilities. This is the first time in my life that I could actually see myself making money from stuff other than a job. The count down is on!

Have a fantastic weekend! Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

I love Sunday mornings. It's funny because I used to hate them. They used to make me feel so alone and lonely because they are such a family day. But one day I decided to change that and I looked for ways to really enjoy them. Now, like I said, I love them. I love the peacefulness of Sunday mornings. I usually go for a longer walk with Lulubelle and just luxuriate in the beauty of the day.

I also call them my spiritual mornings because I make a point of listening to any of my numerous CDs from either Tony Robbins, Harv Ecker or Bob Proctor or listen to the Secret. Something that will help me grow. This morning I listened to the Secret and one of the things that really stood out to me is that when you focus on what you want and you have the faith that the universe will provide it, things will start showing up.

That's what happened with what I wrote about in the last posting. I love it.

My focus now is to manifest $60,000 by the end of the month. What a challenge this is because I have a lot of negative thoughts surrounding this goal. What if I can't do it? Who am I to think that I can do this? What if it doesn't happen? These are all thoughts and ideas that if I let them linger and overtake my thoughts, then it definitely won't happen. So, I challenge myself every day to have total faith that the universe is conspiring to make it happen.

In keeping with this thought of conspiracy, I came up with the idea of doing the re-write on one of my other scripts called Sisi's Dream or Wolf in Sheep's Clothing. I haven't touched the script in a long time and I've been getting notices from production companies that are looking for horrors, of which it is.

I also had so much fun re-writing 3 Hours and I'm getting marvelous feedback that I thought I could do this quickly and then sell it. So that's where I'm at, and I'm so happy and grateful for my life and all of the people in it. I feel like I'm the luckiest person in the world.

I truly hope that the next few days will prove to be the best ever for you. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

I have to tell you about something really really exciting that's happened to me this week.

As you know I've been working at getting my first feature film off the ground. Part of the process is of course having an outstanding script. I mean it's not really necessary to have an outstanding script in order to make a movie but in order to make a career, at least the career that has massive impact, like I do, then the script really must be totally outstanding. It has to stand out from the rest.

Well, I have been working hard at creating this outstanding script. I always knew that I had it but unfortunately I wasn't getting the big reaction from people that were reading it that I was expecting. That I wanted. That would justify me being able to say that it is totally outstanding. It's been very frustrating but the great thing is that I haven't given up.

Last week I said that I was going to start calling all of these people to be part of it, but something was nagging at me. I decided to write down the exact reaction that I wanted to get from people. Put that line of thought on hold for now.

I think it was Monday when I was reminded of a group meeting that I was having that evening when I decided to look into the guy that was leading the group. This is a script writing group that I've been to before. Anyway, he's written two books on screen writing and one of them is called "Writing for emotional impact". It struck me and then I saw that I could buy the electronic version of it, which I did. I thought that perhaps this book could help me with my script because I wasn't getting the emotional response that I've been looking for.

On Wednesday I started reading the book and I came across this section that was talking about "high concept" scripts. I had heard the term before but I never really knew what it meant. So I looked forward to the description that he was hopefully going to supply. He was explaining it and I started understanding but then he said, here are a few examples of how some powerful film executives describe what a hight concept story is. I got goose bumps as I was reading the quotes because almost word for word it was the reaction and impact that I had written down that I wanted my script to have. I'm getting goose bumps just thinking about it!!!

After that I started reading with more intensity and I tell you I am so very excited. Actually words come short of saying how I feel. I'm going to finish reading this book in the next couple of day then I'm going to re-write my script (for the umpteenth time) and I know that without a doubt I am creating the script that is going to have the emotional response and impact that I am looking for. After that, things are really going to explode. I just know it!

I truly hope that you had or will have as joyous and fun a week as I have. Thanks for reading. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

It's been a while. I must admit that changing my beliefs is taking a lot of energy. But I know it's so worth it in the end.

For the last few weeks I've been struggling with my old beliefs. Living in them, trying to change them. I'm battered and bruised but I'm beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Last week I spoke to a possible Executive Producer. They are the ones that either have the money or can get the money for the production of a movie. It was very bizarre. I found him by pure coincidence and he is so perfect for this production. He has very similar views to mine and I can't wait to forge a relationship with him. It's going to be amazing.

I've also just finished putting together a business plan for the movie. I am so overwhelmed with the generosity of the people I asked to be included in the business plan as my consultants. Everything looks great.

Next week is going to be a great challenge. I'm getting on the phone and contacting a whole bunch of actors and other executive producers. I look forward to seeing how this will grow me to be a bigger person.

That's it for now. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

Good Morning! I have something important to share with you. Let me first tell you of my current situation. My current circumstances. I have been living off of savings since I got here in Los Angeles. I was so lucky to have saved a fairly large amount of money before I came here. However, this money has come to an end. I currently have enough to last me approximately a month and a half. My intention is to stay here for good. There are two things that stand in the way of this. One is money and the other is legalities. The money is self explanatory, the legalities are as follows. As a Canadian, I can legally visit in the US for up to 6 months at a time. The way around this is to get some kind of visa or of course a green card. The US has many alternatives for getting a visa. The solution I am focussed on is to get the financing for my film, which is anywhere between $800k to $3M. By getting this money for the production of my film, 3 Hours, the production will be able to pay me, so my personal financial situation will be resolved. The production will also be able to hire me as the director, which will solve my visa or living situation. And the bonus is that I will be able to make a movie, which is my passion. This solution is a dream solution. This is what I've been wanting for a long time.

This morning, during my meditative walk with Lulubelle, I realized that the only reason that I have not been able to raise this kind of fund or to make any significant money with any of my artistic pursuits is simply because of belief. I have this underlying belief that there is no money to be made from artistic endeavors. We, and certainly I, know that this is not so. Otherwise, there wouldn't be people paying millions of dollars for paintings. There wouldn't be any money to be made from creating or singing a song. There wouldn't be any money to be made from television or movies. There wouldn't be any money to be made from designing clothes. And so on. I think I've made my point with this.

So the bottom line is really, truly, my underlying beliefs. Beliefs are truly magical things. They can literally cure you of cancer or they can literally kill you. We have all heard of miracles happening with regards to people curing themselves of cancer, just by the use of their minds. A better example is the whole thing about placebos. There have been documented experiments where patients have been given pills and were told that they were powerful chemotherapy pills, when in fact they were inert, meaning that they had nothing of significance in them. Not even sugar. The patients that truly believed this exhibited all the signs, such as loosing hair and getting sick. The patients that truly believed it would cure them were cured.

On the other end of the spectrum, there is a tribe in Australia where, if you were so unlucky to have a certain stick pointed at you, you would be cursed and die. This stick is believed to have these powers. When it is pointed to a person, and they truly believe the power of this stick, they begins to exhibit illness and withing a couple of days, they die. This is true and a documented fact! The piece of stick does not have power! It is just a piece of wood. But the belief is so powerful that it can kill a man! (or woman).

This is the beauty and magic of beliefs. They can truly create ANYTHING! and I know this and believe this. However, (ya, there is a but in here. :)), the thing is that it is not enough to believe on a conscious level, you have to believe on a subconscious level, mean to your core. At a cellular level. At a foundational level. Another way of saying that is that you "KNOW" it to be trued. And that is where I am. You see the other thing about beliefs is that once they are ingrained, it takes a huge amount of energy to change or remove them. Because once they are there, they protect themselves from change by what I would call metaphorically an instinct for survival. Otherwise, there purpose would cease to exist. What is the point of having beliefs if they can be changed like a pair of underwear? It takes a lot of energy, focus and practice to change a belief, and because they don't want to be changed, they will do whatever it takes not to be changed. This is where you encounter "laziness" or "procrastination" or "not feeling like it today" or well I can just go on but I'm sure you catch my drift. That is the way beliefs survive.

One way of changing beliefs is to have near death experiences. You hear about these stories all the time. But I'm not willing to go through a near death experience in order to change my belief. But I am determined to change this belief. So that is my focus at the moment. To will myself to adopt the new belief that I make large sums of money easily with my art. Wish me luck!

Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

I had an epiphany that I must share with you.

A couple of nights ago I had the best dreams of my life. Not only was it crystal clear but it was about everything I've been striving for in my waking life. I had achieved everything. My perfect body (actually it was more than perfect - it was more like outstanding!!), my career including the adulation and accolades as well as the financial success. It was a dream come true.

The thing about dreams is that your mind doesn't know the difference between a true physical experience or an imagined one. That's why all of the greatest minds believe that in order to achieve the things that you want to achieve, you must be able to visualize it.

The fact that I also dreamed this dream led me to believe that my subconscious mind was finally jumping on the band wagon with my conscious mind. That's when I realized that everything I've been doing is working and that I will, without a doubt achieve everything I intend on achieving!

What I've learned is that in order to achieve what I want to achieve that I must have my vision and focus on it as often as I can. Not just focus, but focus with belief. Having total faith that I will attract to myself all that I ask for, or put another way, all that I focus on. The purpose of the focus and belief is that it's not just enough for my conscious mind to believe but my subconscious mind must believe as well. That's why the focus is so important because it eventually filters down to the subconscious.

So there you go. It works. It's working for me. I have focus, I have vision, I have complete faith and now my subconscious has given me evidence that it is on board.

I love it!

Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

Life is so wonderful, magical and interesting. I've had so many great things happen to me in the last little while. Dreams coming true right and left and in the most interesting ways. I really truly believe in my heart of hearts that it is because of all of the great work that I've done over the past few years.

The greatest discovery I've made is my faith. My faith in getting the things that I want. And the really magical thing about that is that I'm getting the things that I want in the most unconventional ways. I mean that it's not in the way I envision getting what I want. What I do is have complete faith that I will get what I want and go about doing what I think or get inspired to do and then all of a sudden, when I think that what I'm doing is not going to get me the thing that I want, I get it. Isn't that magical?!

The two major things that I'm really focused on at the moment is getting the financing for my film, which I know I will get or simply said in an even more powerful way, I have the financing for my film. And, having the killer body that I've always wanted.

It's all so exciting!!! Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

It's my mom's birthday today. Happy Birthday Mom. I'm so lucky and grateful to have the mother I have because she's taught me so many great things. The best thing she taught me was that I could do anything. It's funny how growing up this didn't resonate much with me, but in recent times I've realized how invaluable this is for me. Thanks mom. Your the best. If you were to ever meet my mom or if you've met her, you'd see that this is true. My friends always went to my mother for advise. She was always everyone's best friend. Something that I strive to emulate myself.

Yesterday, I went to a pitch fest. It was the first official time that I pitched here in LA. It was awesome. There was a woman there whom I had met previously and tried to get a meeting with her, but things just got in the way. The great thing is that she remembered me and she was great to talk to. She asked to see two of my script. I'm so excited.

I also got to talk to quite a few writers and saw a few people that I already knew. It's so cool. I just realized as I was writing this that I've managed to make some friends and acquaintances during the time that I've been here. Sometimes, I need little reminders such as that to realize that all has not been for not.

It's funny isn't it, how although I've learned so many great and freeing things in the past couple of years, I'm still ruled by my habits. Habits like not feeling good enough and not feeling that I do enough. Hmm. I guess not enoughness is a big theme in my past life.

The great thing is that I realize these habits and everyday I catch them sooner and sooner and I'm instilling new habits. It really helps to know where you're heading but I think it's even more important to remind yourself daily of where you're heading because it's so easy, at least for me, to get caught up in the daily, insignificant stuff, like it's too hot outside and so on.

This morning, I'm off to meet with a woman whom I've been helping with her script. It feels really good to be able to contribute in that way.

That's it for now... Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

It's already been a month since my last update and a lot has been going on. I was lucky enough to go to Canada for a visit and then be allowed back into the States. What a great stroke of luck. But I have to say that although the chips were stacked against my return to the States, I had, for the most part, total faith that I would return and I believe this to be a great factor in my being back here. Really.

As you might know from past posts, I've been listening to these CDs by Bob Proctor on "The Secret Science of Getting Rich", which is based on the book by Wallace D. Wattles called "The Science of Getting Rich". It's all about getting rich by doing things in a certain way, not by doing certain things. The "certain way" being a way of having complete faith that the universe will provide you with what you want.

How many times has it happened to you in the past that you would say: "I knew that was going to happen". So reverse engineer it and then you'll realize that what you believe is what you get. Think about it.

The most difficult part is to stay focussed on what you do want because if your anything like me, you've got many years of programing that tells you that you're not in control and that the universe/god is against you. For example, with my whole trip to Canada and coming back to the States, although I had the faith that I would get back somehow, there were times when I thought that I wouldn't. The old: "What if I don't get what I want"... then what? Luckily, I've been listening to the CDs and I recognized it whenever it would pop up and I would change the way I was thinking and steer it back to:"I will get back to the US".

Realizing more and more that I get exactly what I want, I come to a new challenge. What do I really want? As bizarre as this may sound, it's true. What I mean is that, I know what I want. I want to have a massive career in film and to be rich beyond compare, not just to be rich mind you, I do have philanthropic purposes to wanting to be that rich. To have an incredible married life and personal family life and to have massive amounts of fun. What gets in the way are the "realities" of life. The reason I put realities in quotation marks is that reality is really an interpretation of what is going on in the outside world.

I just read recently that Walt Disney (one of my true heroes) came upon Mickey Mouse at the lowest time in his life and career. But we all know he had a vision. A dream. And he held stedfast to his dream and lo and behold he manifested it.

All this to say that I have been consumed by the smallness of what I am experiencing in my life at the moment. The car that doesn't work, the home that is uncertain, the relationship that's not, the body that is not a dream, the shrinking bank account. The great thing is that I know I have let these small things get in my way and although I haven't taken any significant steps to turn my attention to what I want to create, I know I am on the cusp of turning things around. In fact, I am at this moment.

I am so happy and grateful that I get to live the life that I am living and that I get to write these updates once in a while and hopefully affect other people's lives. I feel like I am the luckiest person on earth.

That's it for now... Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

Yesterday I went to a networking group called the Alameda Writer's Group. It's a group of writers that meets once a month for a talk with a speaker and for networking. I spoke to 3 people. The first was the organizer of the group and the other two were a novelist and a script writer. I realized from speaking with them that so many of us live in our habits of fear.

The organizer was not able to look me in the eye, the novelist had the excuse that he wanted to meet the people face to face that would read his book, which obviously limits his ability to sell his book. When a person writes a book it's for the purpose of spreading the knowledge or entertainment of it. His book is non-fiction so it would be to share his knowledge. The script writer was stuck in the idea of not being able to sell his scripts.

This made me realize that I must, absolutely must, finish my book Live Free as soon as possible. It's a book about releasing yourself from your known and unknown fears. It reminds me of an interview that I heard with Deepak Chopra and Tony Robbins. Deepak speaks of living in the unknown. Living in the unknown in the ability to do, be and have anything you want because you don't limit yourself by your past or by anybody elses experience. Just like a child. They aren't limited by anything. They see and believe they can do anything. The only ones stopping them are their parents and the adults that surround them.

All this to say that I have made a pledge to write every day with the purpose of finishing my book and to get it out there.

That's it for now... Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

Gidday all! Isn't life magical?! The reason I say that is that I keep focussing on the fact that the money for my movie is coming. I got a call from my partner saying that she's found this guy who will do matching funds and all we have to do is find a certain amount of money and we'll have all the funds we need to make our movie. I know this sounds a little cryptic but without getting into details, this is a really great opportunity in terms of financing 3 Hours. We are much closer. Not only that but we also got the opportunity to get money for another project that Beth and I are working on. It's a reality series.

I'm also very excited about my trip to Toronto at the end of June. Been already making dates with all of my friends.

One other thing of note this week. I finally brought Lulubelle to get her teeth cleaned yesterday and it turned out that she had to have 13 teeth pulled! Poor Lulubelle!

That's it for now... Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

Buon Giorno! I have to admit that the reason I haven't updated lately was because I was feeling out of sorts. This week is the first week I got back into working on my film stuff full-time. It felt good and I feel good.

I've also been dealing with some personal stuff and it's been really tough but also very rewarding. I've realized that through the pain and suffering that I believed I was experiencing, the true me, the spiritual me, is really separate from the physical and emotional me. I feel things and they are a reflection of my past experiences and stories. They aren't real. They are a fabrication of the me that I created in the past. The true me is love and joy. The true me is unaffected by outside circumstances.

There is no meaning except the meaning that I create and I choose to create meaning that will catapult me forward into the outstanding success that I seek.

Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

Things seem to have grinded to a halt, although I know it just seems that way. I spent the whole week at Genevieve's place helping Scott install some kitchen cabinets and doing some painting for her. Beth (my producing partner) had a difficult time as well this week as she had to put down one of her cats in an emergency situation. But the great thing about having such a great producing partner is that she called me up and said that she felt like things had slowed down to a halt. At least we're on the same page. So we'll be meeting up this Tuesday to set a schedule and get things going again. I've also committed to a few days of painting for Genevieve so we'll see how things turn out.

The good thing is that I created a new vision board for myself today so I know that this will get things going for me again. The most important thing is to use my will to focus on the goal of achieving a blockbuster hit with my film by the end of the summer.

That's it for now. I'm going to keep this one short and sweet.

ttys - Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

It's funny how things turn out sometimes. This week I went to a networking group that I usually go to on Thursday nights and I ended up bringing a mentor with me. His name is Gil Shilton and he's a director and writer and he's directed many many many hit action TV shows of the 80s. I was like a hero, bringing someone in the group that has so much experience and success. It felt good.

Another great thing that happened to me this week is that I got my income tax refund back. It was great especially because I put it out to the universe that I wanted some money and presto, there it was. It was one of the biggest refunds I ever got. The great thing is that it comes just at the right time. I'm curious to see where the next big check is going to come from.

Beth, my producing partner also got a great line on a possible funding source. She's in contact with a person who used to do some fund raising and he's now looking to get back in and she's going to send him our script. It's all very exciting.

This week is going to be a mix between helping Scott doing some painting and cabinet work for his sister and going after some funding money for my feature. It's so much fun.

Oh, ya, and I went to my first LA party on Saturday night. Most of the people I knew were from the A-Team and Shawn, the woman who does the A-Team was there and asked me if I would do a presentation to a group of potential A-Teamers. What a great opportunity and a great honor to be asked to do this.

That's it for now. Have a great week. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.

I didn't get a chance on the weekend to update the Dailies because on Saturday I ended up going to Ventura to meet with my producing partner Beth. And yesterday I went to the beach with Scott and the dogs. But let me back up a little bit.

Last week was a very intensive week because it was my last week of the A-team, the program I came down here to participate in. But let me back up a little more.

As you know, last week I uploaded the teaser onto YouTube and thus began a push to get the numbers up on the viewing of it. As of the moment that I am writing this, we have 944 hits! Woo Hoo! The first few days we were averaging about 100 hits a day. I think we're doing great. Mind you, it's not close to the numbers that I'm looking for but none the less it is a steady climb which I'm very happy about.

So the beginning of last week was spent getting the numbers up. Then Wednesday came and it was my last day for the A-Team. On Tuesday night I got an email from Shawn, the woman who organizes the group, and she challenged me to get the last piece of the puzzle. The last item which I had on the list of goals for the A-team was to be a stand for finding the man of my dreams, which I hadn't yet. So she challenged me to do so.

Tuesday night I dreamt of the man of my dreams and then the dream turned into a nightmare and so I realized the next morning that the reason I hadn't found the man of my dreams is that subconsciously I thought the man of my dreams would turn out to be a nightmare, literally. No wonder I haven't found him.

So in response to that I will be taking a workshop with a friend of mine here in LA on peace between the genders. I'm really looking forward to that.

Wednesday evening was a great time with the A-team. We all had an opportunity to acknowledge each other for our accomplishments. One of the group members, Matthew, had made up a nickname for all of the people in the group and he gave me MVP. Wow! I was so speechless at the accolade.

Then Thursday I had a meeting with Genevieve. She's one of the first people that I met here in LA and she's part owner of the house where I live. I was looking forward to the meeting for many reasons the main on being that she was going to be giving me feedback about my script.

Unfortunately, our meeting was rushed because she had over booked herself for the day. She had very strong opinions and I've learned how to handle these but because of the state I was in due to the end of the A-team, I felt very vulnerable and took it somewhat hard. She also asked me if I would consider changing my living arrangements, which again under normal circumstances this would have been manageable but because of my already heightened state I got scared. I got home after the meeting and cried.

It took me until Saturday morning to begin moving forward again. Sometimes, you just have to allow yourself to go through the emotions.

The reason things changed for me on Saturday is because I asked my friend Julie for help. She was very helpful and helped me begin my recovery. You see the other thing that has been weighing heavy on my mind is my financial situation. My cash reserve is quickly depleting and although I have solutions for earning income whilst I create income from my film, I haven't yet found myself any customers. So of course, most peoples solution for this is to tell someone to get a job. Fortunately, I am unable to get myself a job in the US unless it is under the table and I refuse to bend the law for myself in this way.

There are two frustrations I experience with people telling me to get a job. First of all, I don't want to get a job because that is not what I want to do, and secondly, as you know, I've been listening to my Bob Proctor CDs on the Secret Science of Getting Rich and Jack Canfield actually says in one passage that most people think that the only way to get money is to get a job. In fact, this is how most of modern day society thinks, but the truly happy people in this world are the ones that do things out of need and passion for what they do. It's not a job. And so I'm really intent on achieving this for myself. Part of me thinks that getting a job is the only way to do it as well because that is what I grew up thinking. But that is the old me and the new me is moving in and so there's a battle ensuing inside of me at the moment but the thing is I know who is going to win.

So the universe has begun providing. Like I said above, I went to see Beth and we discussed the next step for 3 Hours and I spoke with her about my meeting with Genevieve, and the great thing is that Beth is also a writer/director/producer and so we speak the same language and we support each other and we had such a great meeting and I left there feeling like a million bucks. I feel so lucky and grateful that the universe conspired to have us meet. :)

Then Sunday I woke in a bit of a worry. I felt like I took a step back again but I knew that in order for me to make anything happen that I needed to have full faith. But I also decided that Sunday was going to be my day off and luckily Scott was going to the beach with Pepper, his dog, and so Lulubelle and I tagged along. I'm so lucky to be living where I am living and to have the roommates that I have. The drive through Malibu and our time at the beach was truly re-energizing.

So this morning I woke up and I felt unsure again about my next steps, but I know where I want to go and I already have a few things that I need to do lined up so as long as I keep re-issuing my declaration that I have complete faith that things will work themselves out and I keep taking steps forward with that in mind then it will happen. It's a law of the universe. It is inevitable. It's just a matter of time that this becomes a habit for me to think this new way and not the old way. I'm looking forward to the transformation and to be getting one step closer to my financial goal.

I hope you all have a great week. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.